day three of 2011 - can i have a do over please?

i have had a tough emotional day today, things bubbling up that really didn't need to bubble... i'm not a lava lamp for fuck sake...

day started off bad... i wasn't able to fall asleep until about 1am... then what time do i wake up? 4am. yes, three entire hours of sleep... it would be different if i slept like the dead during those three hours, but alas i didn't... so i get up, which was probably stupid in itself, and come out to the old computer.... (hello, my name is lucy and i'm a junkie) i then proceed to play stupid games on facebook until it's time to get up at 530, then it's off to work i go

and boy o boy, it was cold this morning...my poor little fingers were frozen by the time i got to work, which consequently was the same time my car decided it was warmed up.... friggin slacker!

day is humming a long and then some assbag decides to mess it up for me... now, you say, what did this said assbag do?

well, i guess it just boils down to the difference between men and women, and that whole she said, he heard thing... basically to keep it clean for the children, he said hi, i said hi... so far so good, right? he said how are you, i said fine and you.... yes, a well oiled machine this conversation is.... he said do you like the cubs,i say, no, i like the cardinals (this is where i'm cleaning up the conversation) he said, but the cubs are really good, i said well, you can think that, but i still don't like them, i like the cardinals. he said do you want to see the cubs, i say NO THANKS, i want to see the cardinals. again, you know you want to see the cubs, i say, thank you but no, i want to see the cardinals, thank you for the offer though... AGAIN he says, but you will really like the cubs... i say LOOK, I DON'T WANNA SEE THE CUBS I WANT TO SEE THE CARDINALS, thank you for the conversation, but no cubs for me. YET AGAIN... i'm sorry, but i really think you will want to see the cubs. SEE ASSBAG!!!

now, hindsight being 20/20 and all, did said assbag truly mess up my day for me? no... but assbag did remind me of why i haven't had a date in almost 3 years..... then that made me think of something else, which in turn made me think of something else, which led me to www.livephish.com to listen to some phish.... and what all did they play today - seemed like a whole bunch of old stuff that i saw on BSM many years ago, which reminded me of different times, and old friends.... then i got sad....

so, after a marathon conference call and a well deserved smoke, i came home... i'm gonna crawl in bed and get under the covers and request my do over for today... well, not really, i will just go onto the next, but sometimes a do over would be lovely

nite pholks