my 40th. year

yes, i just turned 40... ugh...

well, i'm divorced, overweight, grey and a grandma... who woulda thunk it? not me...

i guess you do a lot of reflecting when you hit a "milestone" age like 40... at least i have... and because of that, i am **FINALLY** starting to do some stuff for me... because i want to, not because someone is telling me to...

so, i have started an exercise program, because i have gained 60 pounds in a year.... no fun there... plus that gives me some time for myself...

i have decided that i'm much happier single, for now anyway... it was very upsetting and terribly depressing to end the engagement, but i believe it's for the best. i have been thinking a lot lately about my ex's... all 3 of them. the ex-hubby - well, he's that, the ex-hubby... we get along pretty well, but we have our moments... ben... well, i know he got married and has a baby... but other than that, that's all i know... i hope it works for the both of them.... then there is greg... the one that i thought for sure i could make work... but i couldn't...

i was in texas recently on a business trip and someone said something to me about being "married to my job" and i realized that is exactly what i am... it's my real relationship... and you know what? i'm damned happy about it too, because i know i'm good at it, unlike a normal marriage...

anyway... here's to my 40th. year.... cheers