well, it's 3:20 in the morning and i can't sleep. sarah is in there sawing logs, greg is on the couch, sleeping away, and here i sit wide awake. great. this past week has been a bear... i'm grouchy, greg's grouchy, makes for not much fun, i tell ya.
it's so hard to let go of old habits and thoughts. some things have happened this week that make me completely revert to "is that comment about me? did he/she mean me when they said that? why did i get that look, what did i do wrong?" and i tell you, i absolutely HATE that about me... among other things, but that is one thing that i just can't stand about me...
so, while i'm trying to go to sleep, albeit unsuccessfully, tonite, i end up on the disney channel watching "boy meets world" and it's one where corey and topanga are in college and are married. they have their first fight ever, and what do i do? start crying... it's a friggin' sitcom on the damned disney channel, and i start crying.... i guess because part of their first fight ever hit home to me, and boy, did that suck... but i will say, that the advice that corey's friend shawn gave him was dead on... basically he said this:
she left, crying - go home, hope that she is still there and if she is shut and lock the door and neither one of you leave till you work it out
it was great advice... hopefully one of these days i will learn to be a bit more self-confident and not let things get to me... awww, who am i kidding, i'm almost 40 years old, maybe i will get self-confidence for my birthday....
gonna try to sleep now.... g'nite pholks...
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