whatever...

i'm sure that i have used this title line before, but you know what, i really don't care... it's been a bit since i have written, and right now, i'm writing out of emotion, so let's see how far this carries me... i'm cranky... very cranky... and when i get cranky, suddenly everything that is going on in my life blows up and everything is wrong... i can't really pin it down as to what is wrong, but something is... just this gut feeling, telling me to "RUN AWAY." i don't know... run away from what? work? home? i don't know, but something is gnawing at me to get tha fuck out of whatever it is... it's funny, my horoscope said that this is the kind of day i was going to have... and i didn't read it till just now... but as i sit here and get more pissed off, i am realizing, "hey, you made your bed, lie in it" now, i made my bed at work, i made my bed at home, i made my bed with my finances, i made my bed with my family... so, which bed am i talking about... i don't know... wish i did... maybe it's all of them... who knows... i just wish i would quit fucking up...

i love it when...

"I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. " - Harry Burns (Billy Crystal) - When Harry Met Sally

yesterday, Sunday, February 4, 2007 is a day that i will remember forever... it's a day that i never thought would come again... it's the day that greg asked me to marry him... and i said YES!! so, pending any difficulties, July 7, 2007, we will get married...

i love it when you ask me to marry you, and love it more when i say yes... i can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you...