An Exploration of Music

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apprehension

i'm meeting my best friend's girl friend tomorrow... i must say, i'm a bit nervous about it. i don't have a lot of luck with significant others. they typically don't like me too much... i guess, since i'm female and 95% of my friends are men, the significant others see me as a threat. thing is, if a man is my friend, that's usually how it stays. now, there have been some instances where, let's just say, that a significant other would need to be concerned, but not in this case. greg and i have been friends for 6 years now, and although the thought may have crossed my mind a few years ago, that has long since passed, and the realization that we are much better friends definitely out-weighs the possibility of any short lived romance. anyway, i'm a little nervous... i remember taking the man in my life at the time to meet greg (they knew each other in the past anyway.) it was like taking someone to meet my parents, seeking his approval. greg will be the man that will give me away if i am ever lucky enough to get married again. my hope is that all this nervousness about meeting the girlfriend will be for naught, and it goes well...

and if it doesn't, guess what? he's still my best friend...

A Life Of Passion

Getting Back To What You Love

There are times in life when we are committed to pursuing our passions. Every molecule in our body is focused on doing what we love. At other times, necessity and responsibility dictate that we put our dreams aside and do what needs to be done. It is during these moments that we may choose to forget what it is that we love to do. There are many other reasons for why we may leave our passions behind. A hobby may lose its appeal once we've realize it will never turn into our dream job. Someone important to us may keep telling us that our passions are childish and unsuitable - until we finally believe them.

Forgetting about what you love to do can be a form of self-sabotage. If you can forget about your dreams, then you never have to risk failure. But just because we've decided to ignore our passions doesn't mean they no longer exist. Nothing can fill the emptiness that remains in a space vacated by a passion that we havetossed aside. Besides, life is too short to stop doing what you love, and it is never too late to rediscover your favorite things. If you gave up playing aninstrument, painting, drawing, spending time in nature, or any other activity orinterest that you once loved to do, now may be the time to take up that passionagain. If you don't remember what it is that you used to be passionate about,you may want to think about the activities or interests that you used to love or the dreams that you always wished you could pursue.

You don't have to neglect your responsibilities to pursue your passions, and youdon't have to neglect your commitments to do what you love. When you make aneffort to incorporate your interests into your life, the fire within youignites. You feel excited, inspired, and fed by the flames that are sparked by living your life with passion for what you love.

are you in or are you out?

** let me preface this by saying i have had too much to drink, so i apologize in advance if i am rambling**

when someone tells you that they are going to do something, then why don't they do it? how friggin difficult is it to say "yes, i said i would do that, so i am going to do it"??!! ( i know, puncuation off there, grammar police coming to get me)

i mean, seriously... if you have been saying for weeks that you want to, say for instance, see a movie, then you make plans to see that movie, you have EVERY opportunity to see that movie but you don't, then wtf is up with that?

i guess i should just read that book, and it will tell me all the answers... as trey would say READ THE FUCKING BOOK!! what book... well, if you are bright enough to read between the lines, you will have been able to pick up on the fact that i'm talking about a man... so, the book, is "He's Just Not that Into you" which is fine.. i don't have a problem with that, but then don't call me when it's convenient for you... don't say all the right things monday thru friday, then on the weekend come up with excuses to cancel the plans...

i'm so over it all... whatever... bring me another blue moon, beotch...

new music friday

today's new music is from North Mississippi All Stars - Electric Blue Watermelon. This is a disc full of foot stomping blusey funk! I am totally diggin this disc. NMAS is a great group, and the lead singer, Luther Dickenson, is a white boy with a black voice... this boy has some serious soul in in voice! I like the whole disc, i don't think there is one song on here that i dislike... check it out for a fun disc!!

emotions

it's funny how emotions take over us at times. there has been so much internet "drama" lately in my circle of friends it's frightening. watching a friend of mine go thru a break up, and watch it all unfold via myspace. watching my "sketchy" internet friends on our message board (www.truephans.com) get in an uproar over "is phish coming back or not." watching them get in an uproar over "is umphrey's mcgee as good as phish" it's crazy really. everyone is entitled to their opinion and some people are so passionate about things that sometimes they can't/won't see or hear any other opinion. passion is good, but it's just someone else's opinion, they aren't bashing YOU they are stating their opinion. as my dad used to say, opinions are like assholes, everybody has one.

i think we all need to remember that...

reflecting

i don't know what it is, but i have really been "reflecting" a lot lately... there are some things in my life i want to change, and thanks to jerry, i have realized "when it rains, it pours" so everything seems to be coming down all at the same time... it's like, my professional stuff is finally in line, so now all my personal stuff is deciding to throw up at the same time...

so, this is all the stuff i am contemplating at this moment:

• overall health and well being - meaning, it seems as if i have put on about 400 pounds lately, feeling "fat" and for those of you that are women, i think you can appreciate my thoughts on that - granted, i have always been overweight, but it's bothering me now. because of that, i have decided to start looking into a few things... 1. joining a gym, just let me walk on the treadmill for an hour a day 3 days a week and see where that gets me, it will be a helluva lot more exercise than i am doing now. 2. eat better - always a challenge. working so many jobs, it's difficult some times to eat right. so much easier to just "grab something on the way to work" than it is to actually find something healthy to eat. I have found a magazine that i find very interesting - natural health. we get this at work (p/t job) and it covers everything from eating right to exercise to beauty. i think i'm going to subscribe. 3. educate myself - on all kinds of things... but basically in regards to natural ways of improving my health
• spiritual health - as most of you know, i'm not a deeply religious person, but lately (over the past year or so) i have been more open to this part of me than ever. I'm going to start trying to find myself when it comes to spirituality. How? 1. i have this book, that has been recommended to me "The Power of Now" that i am going to read. I'm not expecting to find all the answers in it, but possibly some guidance, that's all i'm really looking for. Ways to look at things that maybe i'm not "open" to at this point in my life. 2. start trying to find the right "religious" fit for me. What is right for lucy?
• romance - well, it's been a while since i have had any romance in my life, but right now, is that what i want? do i need someone in my life to keep me happy? no, i don't. i have found that out about me over the past 8 months, but the flip side is, do i need someone right now? i don't know... lots of soul searching for that point needs to be done...

so, it's been an emotional few days for me... hopefully i can make some of these changes and start feeling better about myself. ahhh, the power of low self-esteem... hopefully i can overcome it and be happy with ME.

i'll keep you posted...

weekend update

although i worked on saturday, i had my little one, so we made some cheese soup and watched Hook. sunday, we went to see curious george. I went mainly for the music, but it was a really cute movie... very heartwarming. last nite we watched Zathura... that was a fun movie!!! kind of predictable, but all in all a good time!

hope everyone had a good weekend!

new music friday

this is such a fun cd!!! first of all, it's very apparent that i love jack johnson... secondly, the soundtrack to this movie is just plain fun!! plus it has a cover of the napoleon dynamite theme song by the white stripes!!! if you have little ones in the house, check it out, because it's just a heartwarming cd... if you like jack... check it out too!!

this made my morning!

i just received a message from a former employee. way back when, we changed the bonus structure, and during that period, we had to have one on one meetings with our reps to go ove how they could make money under the new program and what did they plan to do with it. well, peggy said that she needed to pay for a trip to california due to her son getting married. well, she just sent me a message that said she was able to take care of the plane and the hotel with her bonus and that she appreciated all my help in getting her there!

that truly made my morning!

INK!!!

i got a new tattoo today, and MAN did it hurt!!! this is my first one in 2 years, and it was quite painful. I had "mother daughter bonding" with katie, as she got one too... only one more to go for her and she has the same number i do...

i will say, tho, it's cool when the artist, as he's doing your tatt says "oh yeah, that's cool."

katie says it's quite "pimp." just the look i was going for... not...

it's a tye dyed peace symbol... and once it heals, i will post a pic, cuz it is quite pimp... and cool...

myspace

so, what's all the hubbub with myspace? i started an account over there just so i could respond to messages of some of my friends. EVERYONE is on myspace. the service is sub-par if you ask me, due to the system timing out and it's down for maintenance all the time. i love my spot here at blogspot. yes, i can do more over there at myspace, but if anyone REALLY wants to get to know me, i direct them here....

but for shits and giggles, if you wanna check me out on myspace, go here...

www.myspace.com/phish91267

new music friday

i like jack johnson... his music is just so happy and chill.... i have listened to this cd non-stop since i got it, and it's just great. it's got that happy surf/jam feel to it and it makes me smile. i have decided that if i ever get married again, there will be a lot of jack johnson music played at my reception! if you are having a tough day, pop in some jack, he will bring a smile to your face!!!

February 8, 2004

today is the two year anniversary of my friend matt's death. i will never forget the phone call from robbie telling me that matt passed away.

i think of matt every day, and i miss him so damned much, sometimes there aren't words to cover it.... i hope he is happier now... i'm sure he is... he brought so much joy to so many people...

i love you matt, you will always be in my heart, mind and soul

tired

the past few weeks have been insane for me. new job, two new accounts, both coming up at the same time. having to be alienated from my friends at work due to being "promoted" and then being incredibly lonely on top of all of it.

today the client for account #2 came for their first visit. we are doing very well on the account, so it was a good visit, but damn, what a day. got here at 6am, and just finished dinner, to which, of course, i ate too much plus had a couple of beers (big surprise there!) so, now i sit here at work waiting for the place to close so i can take jason home, and just wanting to get home to my bed and crawl under the covers...

i'm tired

moe. review

2/2/06 Foellinger Auditorium, University of Illinois - Urbana, IL
Set 1: Spine of a Dog > New York City > She Sends Me, Four > Wicked Awesome, Captain America > Bring It Back Home
Set 2: Tailspin > Meat, Biblical Proportions, Opium > 32 Things > New York City reprise* Encore: Join Together > Nebraska
* First time played wow, what a show! for seeing live music for the first time in almost 18 months, this was a great way to get my feet wet again!! the crowd was a bit different than i am used to seeing at a show, but i wasn't there for the crowd! on the way to the show, robb asked me "so, what are you looking for tonite?" my response was "i would love a nebraska, she sends me... could always have a plane crash and a captain america, but if i get a nebraska and a she sends me then i will be happy!" well, ask and ye shall receive!!! plus, we were at the stage for the whole show!!!

The spine of a dog opener was great, it got the crowd moving... then into new york city, which is always a good one... then, what's that i hear... SHE SENDS ME!! right on! and it was a good one too... but i must say, the highlight of the nite was the second set... it was all about rob, the bass player... he dropped some serious bombs... the meat... O M G... EPIC, is all i gotta say about it... the entire set was a huge freeflow of music... meat had to be 25+ minutes long.. then biblical proportions, then opium (my first opium)

what's cool about moe. is that they take you places with their music... the rock hard, but when they jam, be prepared for a journey.... trippy, spacey, rocking jams.... you need to sit down when you are done, as you are wiped..

then it's time for the encore.... join together (who cover) then NEBRASKA!!! it appeared that join together was a first, as chuck (i was on "chuck's" side) had a cheat sheet for lyrics on that one... but he friggin nailed it.. they were having so much fun up there tonite too... at one point, chuck was 3 feet from me...

my night was made!!! Good music, great company!!! can't wait to download this show and share with everyone, because i think EVERYONE needs to experience that "meat" that i witnessed tonite!!!

GIMME MOE.!!!

new lyrics - diggin this song

I'll Be the One - Warren Haynes

When you're walking down the street
I'll be the one that stares like a statue
You turn the corner
I'll be the one that follows you downtown
When you finally notice me
I'll be the one fumbling with his feelings
Totally oblivious to anything and everything else around

Girl, when we met
I'll be the one that showers you with attention
To win your love I'll fight until the very end
When you treat me like a fool
I'll be the one that doesn't need redemption
Yeah, drive me away
I'll keep coming back again and again

I'll be the rain if you want me to be
Help you to grow with no guarantee
Even be the clown sad but true
But don't use me up
Or I'll be the one that used to worship you

When silence fills your world
I'll be the one that knows what you're thinking
And when passion burns like fire
I'll be the one bathing in the light
When the curse of darkness falls
I'll be the one who offers a candle
I'll even be the cushion
For things that go crazy in the night

I'll be the rain if you want me to be
Help you to grow with no guarantee
Even be the clown sad but true
But don't use me up
Or I'll be the one that used to worship you

I'll be the rain if you want me to be
Help you to grow with no guarantee
Even be the clown sad but true
But don't use me up
Or I'll be the one that used to worship you