it amazes me sometimes when we realize we have grown... when we see the forest thru the trees and all that bollocks... when we realize that yeah, what happened sucked, but it was for the best...
as i read thru "his" blog and see his current post, i am heartbroken that it all came down to that... i cry as i scroll down the screen reading the story... yes, i think of him often, i think of the kids... do i love him... yeah, i do, i always will, in some way... like my ex-husband, i was with him for more than 1/2 my life, yeah, i still love him too... but it's not "that" kind of love anymore... not for either of them... it is truly a love based around friendship and caring...
so, as i am reading his story, i'm sitting here at the library with tears streaming down my face... but the flip side of it is, i know that it's because he has someone better suited for him to deal with what he is going thru than i was... i am truly happy for him that he has heidi in his life... now, 6 months ago, this definitely wouldn't have been the case, but i have learned and i have grown, and that's what life is all about, right? learning from our experiences...
so, my hope is that it all works out for him.... but my BIG hope is that what i have learned will carry over into the next relationship that i have and i can make that one bigger and better and be the best i can be...
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a little bit of closure...
good for you, lucy. keep on keepin' on, ya know?
just wanted to pop on and let you know that i am grateful for what you did for me. and that i am truly sorry for some of the things that i put you through. i beg your forgiveness. but you were a tool in the hand of god, and for that you will be rewarded...
while we won't be talking from here out(it's not appropriate) as we go our separate paths, i wanted to let you know that i do value you. know this too. believe it or not, heidi is grateful for your service too, and has said so...
say hello to the girls for me and may god bless you and keep you as you walk this crazy road.
laters...
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