yep, that's me! i thought that after 5 months, i would be ok... funny, still haven't cried... but yeah, so, i'm not ok... i had the knife go ripping thru my heart AGAIN tonight... why? cuz he posted about the new girlfriend on his blog... picture and all... it fucking killed me... why? because, yes, i still think about him... and not in the "omg, i wish we could be together" way, but in the "i wonder how he's doing" way... a lot of people won't believe that, but it's true... we were friends at the start of all of this and now we aren't... i have said before on this blog, numerous times, that my friends mean the world to me, i can't just turn that off...
i don't know, i guess with everything i went thru for him, i don't even get an honorable mention? maybe i am just as bad as the soon to be (or maybe now) ex-wife? i don't know... but omg, the hurt that i feel right now is unbearable...
whatever...
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