movie review

My friend Debbie and i went to see the movie "Jarhead" last night... man, it was good! The movie is based on former Marine Anthony Swofford's best-selling 2003 book about his pre-Desert Storm experiences in Saudi Arabia and about his experiences fighting in Kuwait. My ex-husband is a former Jarhead, so watching this movie brought back many memories of when he was in Desert Shield/Storm. Jake Gyllenhaal and Jamie Foxx did a great job, plus, i must say the Marines in the movie looked damned good in uniform!! =)

new music friday

thanks to Eric who gave me this one... kind of surprising, as eric likes a lot of rap music and when he told me about this disc, i was skeptical, to say the least, but here it is... Deltron 3030. This is the guy that does the "rap" on the original Gorillaz cd... it's really good and i was very surprised... check it out...

Happy Thanksgiving!

I wanted to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving as I will be without a computer until Friday! This is my favorite holiday, it's not "commercialized" like the majority of the holidays. This to me is a "true" holiday. Plus the food is incredible!!

Everyone be safe and enjoy your friends and family...

a message to you...

i hate to see adam put the books away.... good luck on d-day... been a long time coming...

hope you are doing well

bloody hell

katie and i went to see harry potter and the goblet of fire this weekend! i was so excited to see it, i think more so than some kids out there... the movie was good, but will require a second viewing, as it was kind of confusing at times... but overall, very good... there was more humor in this movie than the others, and i like that!! go see it! it's good!!!

my mom

my mom had a stroke on friday... it wasn't a "major" stroke, it was considered a "mini-stroke" but in my eyes, a stroke is a stroke... i spent most of the night at the hospital, and after many visits by the doctor on saturday, they decided it was ok for her to go home on aspirin therapy and a trip to the neurologist as a follow up. my mom works way too hard, practically killing herself because she is a dedicated employee, she works two jobs and gives 110% at each one... i wish they would have kept her in the hospital a bit longer, if for no other reason except she needs her rest.

now, allow me to go off on a rant here for a moment... i was at work on friday when this happened (at full time job) and was scheduled to work at my part-time job until midnight. so, i let my boss know at 330 on friday that mom needed to go to the doctor, as she was feeling "funny" and didn't want to drive herself, as she was disoriented. i informed him that i may need to leave to take her. i was scheduled to get off work at 5pm. my bosses response? "well, what time does your shift end?" i inform him at 5pm. he says "i guess that will be ok, no need to make up your hours." i was a bit honked off at this point, but i let it go. when the doctor called me and told me that she needed to be transported to the ER, i left, 10 minutes early.

I call my part-time job and say "i have to take my mom to the ER, as she has had a stroke. I'm scheduled to work 715-1215, so depending on what happens at the ER, i may be late, or i may not be in at all. This was at 510pm that i called and talked to our HR manager. i get a phone call at 900 from the gal in my department at work, wanting to know where i was. i call her back and explain what happened, how mom was being admitted into the hospital. her response was "i was told you were going to be late, that you went to dinner with your mom." Uhhh, no. so, now, i had to call my department manager on saturday to explain what happened. all she could say was "well, i was told you were going to dinner." not a "omg, is she ok?" not a "i'm sorry to hear that." not a "i'm sorry for the confusion." what ever happened to common courtesy? has running a business made EVERYONE out there turn into cold, heartless people? i guess so... i guess i'm old school and i am concerned for people. I don't know, but the whole situation pissed me off...

mom is now home from the hospital and doing well. she has rested most of the past two days, so that's good, but she is off to work tomorrow. the things we put our bodies through... it's crazy...

new music friday

Today's new music is getting the bottom of my new music list... i'm running out, so more than likely, unless i get something new this week, i will start recycling some of my current music that you may or may not know about...

This week, it's the White Stripes - Get Behind Me Satan. I really like this CD, track 5, Little Ghost is my favorite. Never knew the White Stripes except for what i had heard on the radio a few times, but after hearing this disc, i want to hear more!!

thanks paul...

poker wisdom for the day

A Smith & Wesson beats four aces.

Anonymous

hello, my name is lucy and i am a hippie

today, someone asked me why i like phish. I responded with "do you have all day?"

here is just a brief excerpt of my response to question...

phish means so much to me, and is even more special, because my friend matt turned me on to it, and he has since passed away, so everytime i listen to farmhouse, i get weepy. everytime i watch bittersweet motel, i want to cry. the joy i get listening to this band is incredible. the first time i saw bittersweet motel, i compared it to a religious experience, i was so moved.
i can get "high" off the music, i don't need anything else to help get me there.... the music is so happy, it's always there for you, good times and bad times... it has soul, and feeling and emotion... i love it...

i love phish and... phish!

i just watched the coolest thing...

and it made me smile and giggle soooooo much....

those of you that know me know that my favorite band in the whole world called it quits last year, it saddened me to no end... Phish... well, trey played and mike came out and they did an acoustic version of a phish song...

here's the link to the video... there were some lyrical flubs, but who the hell cares... it's the boys doing what they do and it made me smile...

ahhh, phish... you make me so happy!!!

http://s55.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=31I1ATEGPYALU08JF6DY0T1AO1

it confuses me...

The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
But I
I love it when you read to me
And you
You can read me anything

Peter Gabriel - Book of Love - excerpt

yes, it is confusing, but if you find the right one, then it all makes sense... hopefully it will all be clear... one of these days...

new music friday

today's installment is not the "norm" for me, but i like it! Gorillaz "Demon Days." Track 6, Feel Good, Inc. is pretty good, but my favorite it track 10, All Alone. You should check it out some time... it's worth it!

Smoothing Transitions

10 Steps To Making Change Easier

1. Begin by making small changes or break up large-scale changes into more manageable increments. This can make you feel better about handling the changes you are about to make while making you more comfortable with change in general.

2. Mentally link changes to established daily rituals. This can make changes like taking on a new habit, starting a new job, or adapting to a new home happen much more smoothly. For example, if you want to begin meditating at home, try weaving it into your morning routine.

3. Going with the flow can help you accept change instead of resisting it. If you stay flexible, you will be able to ride out change without too much turbulence.

4. When a change feels most stressful, relief can often be found in finding the good that it brings. An illness, a financial loss, or a broken relationship can seem like the end of the world, yet they also can be blessings in disguise.

5. Remember that all change involves a degree of learning. If you find change particularly stressful, try to keep in mind that after this period of transformation has passed, you will be a wiser person for it.

6. Remember that upheaval and confusion are often natural parts of change. While we can anticipate certain elements that a change might bring, it is impossible to know everything that will happen in advance. Be prepared for unexpected surprises, and the winds of change won't easily knock you over.

7. Don't feel like you have to cope with changing circumstances or the stress of making a change on your own. Talk about what's going on for you with a friend or write about it in a journal. Sharing your feelings can give you a sense of relief while helping you find the strength to carry on.

8. Give yourself time to accept any changes that you face. And as change happens, recognize that you may need time to adjust to your new situation. Allow yourself a period of time to reconcile your feelings. This can make big changes feel less extreme.

9. No matter how large or difficult a change is, you will eventually adapt to these new circumstances. Remember that regardless of how great the change, all the new that it brings will eventually weave itself into the right places in your life.

10. If you're trying to change a pattern of behavior or navigate your way through a life change, don't assume that it has to be easy. Wanting to cry or being moody during a period of change is natural. Then again, don't assume that making a change needs to be hard. Sometimes, changes are meant to be that easy.

friggin' idiot!

yep, that's me! i thought that after 5 months, i would be ok... funny, still haven't cried... but yeah, so, i'm not ok... i had the knife go ripping thru my heart AGAIN tonight... why? cuz he posted about the new girlfriend on his blog... picture and all... it fucking killed me... why? because, yes, i still think about him... and not in the "omg, i wish we could be together" way, but in the "i wonder how he's doing" way... a lot of people won't believe that, but it's true... we were friends at the start of all of this and now we aren't... i have said before on this blog, numerous times, that my friends mean the world to me, i can't just turn that off...

i don't know, i guess with everything i went thru for him, i don't even get an honorable mention? maybe i am just as bad as the soon to be (or maybe now) ex-wife? i don't know... but omg, the hurt that i feel right now is unbearable...

whatever...

weekend update

i started my 2nd. part time job this weekend. It was fun... just like riding a bike, i haven't done "retail" since 1997, and it all came back to me, really quickly, so this should be a good thing. Except for the fact that i haven't had a day off from all 3 jobs so far for the month, and probably won't get one until thanksgiving at the earliest... but here is hoping this can get me out of the financial mess i'm in right now. I'm mentally and physically exhausted right now, and that's not helping. It's amazing what stress does to you... it's my weekly monday anxiety attack... gotta love it!!

whoa - this is harsh...true, but harsh

"Whether he likes it or not, a man's character is stripped bare at the poker table; if the other poker players read him better than he does, he has only himself to blame. Unless he is both able and prepared to see himself as others do, flaws and all, he will be a loser in poker, as in life."

- Anthony Holden

new music friday

most of you that know me will be surprised by today's selection... it's a gospel cd, with a "hippie" flair... Ben Harper with the Blind Boys of Alabama. This disc is so nice, it's hard to explain. I do like Ben Harper... and everything i have heard from Blind Boys of Alabama has been great. So, if you get a chance, check it out... it's quite enjoyable.

poker humor

"last night i stayed up late playing poker with tarot cards. I got a full house and four people died."

steven wright