I’m trying to be strong, I really am… so maybe I’m just slipping over the past few days… but I hurt… every part of me does… I hurt so bad that I can’t even cry…it’s funny how heartbreak can take over everything in your body, mind and soul….
I’m so scared to get hurt again… the problem with that is the only way you will know if you are going to get hurt again is to jump back in there and take a chance… but I don’t want to… I’m scared to death… I guess what I’m saying is that I want this pain to go away…
I also want to understand… why did this happen? What did I do? Did I do something wrong? Am I undesirable? Am I unattractive? What could I have done to make him love me the way I love him? I have learned a lot from the relationship, I have, but I guess I need to learn more…. I don’t want this to happen to me again, so I want to know what I need to do next time…. Was I too understanding? Was I too giving? Was I too loving? I don’t know…
What I do know is that I just want to stop hurting….
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